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| Time: | 11:14 am. |
| Mood: |  cheerful. | | Music: | a;dlfjkad;fljf. |
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wow .. this journals hellllllla old
how cute .. but yeah .. im debating on whether or not i wana keep this one too or not ............
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yep .. me too
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why do i keep liking brian!? :( :( :(
<3
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NO CELL!!!!! FOR A WEEK
HATEING THE PARENTALS
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| Time: | 8:12 am. |
| Mood: |  hungry as fuck!. |
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lets see .. so i just got home like 2 minutes ago from bowling w/eddie crystal &porno. it was great. hmmm last night was very .. eventful? i had fun sometime between &after me freezing my ass off &crystal almost getting paralyzed. liek wow! so not kool.
me eddie &crystal went here &there for a few hours waiting for porno .. then we went to vallejo to visit her grammy &dad. then we met porno over at starbucks along w/everyone else. uhhh then me eddie crystal porno matt jiffy amy jessie cori &some dude idk went to dennys &stuff. fun. uhh thennn we went i dont even remember. but while we were at dennys i got a few phone calls &i felt special but ya it was funny. ::sigh:: um we probably went back to starbucks. thennnn me porno eddie crystal jiffy &cori decide to go to the pool hall.
so i got in coris truck w/her .. crystal goes w/porno .. &jiffy goes w/eddie .. pornos "leading the way" &like outta nowhere comes a red light &he stops hella fuckin fast &cori hella tailgating so like .. yeahhh!!! she rams into him :\ &pornos car just goes flyyyyin through the light! so we go around the corner &coris new truck is FUCkeD up!! like omg. she starts crying &we look at pornos car &theres a teeeeeny weeeeeeny scratch on the bumper which we dont even know if it was there before that even happened lol
so then we go to pornos car &crystals just layin there hella stiff &hella shaky &she cant move her neck. so we're like fuckkkk cuz it was sosososoo random. god it was crazy. too bad like .. right when that happened i was like "damn .. i totally jinxed us" cuz like 30 seconds before taht happened since she was hella goin fast ¬ really paying attention because she was looking for cd's i was all "now ..dont hit that car in front of us .. " &she was "ooo yahhh .. " blahblah all like sarcastic ya know lol. sooo yeah! &then! i guess crystal was sayin shit about how her brother got in a car accidnet liek as our accident took place. idk just weird.
so we were double jinxed. :sigh!!!!: dammit. hmm but yeah so we took her to the er in vallejo &just stayed out all night &stuff. it was fun. but yeahhh i have to do SOME homework ill ttyl
"POOP ISNT JUST A 4 LETTER WORD .. ITS ALSO BROWN"
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Saturday, March 27th, 2004
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wow i cant believe how right brian was .. ! <3
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| Time: | 1:33 pm. |
| Mood: |  annoyed w/peeps. | | Music: | random song??. |
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im tired of the usual people .. wow! theyre gay. hmmm i chilled w/brian yesterday for a few hours then eddie &crystal kidnapped me &took me to the pool hall w/them to meet their homedawgz. it was fun i like their friends!!
but this chick named julie got mad cuz her ex thinks im hott?? so there was a smidge of "negative energy" haha. umm yeah we went to the pool hall then to starbucks then to dennys! mmm - then back to starbucks. aw i had fun. i<3crystal! &all their friends .. i met hella ppl i dont remember all their names but hmm there wassss me eddie crystal cori porno julie fatty lump lump brent matt chris? uhhhhhh all these coffee chop folks taht were pretty kool .. &its so cute cuz theyre all "juggalos" n shiiiiet lol. its funny but ya
i just got done bleaching some of my hair. hmm i havent looked at it yet lol. cuz im kool. wow! so i was supposed to perform today at solano .. &on sunday fae said that she wasnt sure if we were gonna be performing cuz the lady hasnt called her yet ..
so she said she'd call us. &so she calls me at 1045 or so &uhh was just all like if you can show up at solano around 12 wearing a white short &black pants thatd be great blah blah blah. i was soooo mad. grrrrr! so ya! but its ok. theyre like performing right now :( poor jizzamie. but ya but anyways.
i still ahve hellllllla homework to do :\ oh wells. i get to go tanning on monday y'alls &ill prolly go like .. every day this week lol. cuz i need to be tan for the wedding! :D yum sayin. but ima go now ..
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Thursday, March 25th, 2004
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01. where/how did we meet?
02. did you like me right away?
03. take a stab at my middle name.
04. where do i live?
05. how long have you known me?
06. my age.
07. what's my birth date?
08. have you ever had a crush on me?
09. do you remember the first things i said to you?
10. what is the best feature about me?
11. what is the worst feature about me?
12. am i shy or outgoing?
13. would you say i'm funny?
14. how often do you think of me?
15. if there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?
16. have you ever told me that you love me?
17. are we good friends?
18. do you wish we were closer?
19. what would you change about me?
20. do you think you'll know me in five years?
21. whats the most embarassing thing i have ever done?
22. if you had to describe me in 3 words, what would it be
eyy you guys i wanna do this .. so ya! hehehe
do this for me &ill do it for you pwitty pweeze
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| Time: | 10:19 pm. |
| Mood: |  horny. | | Music: | brand new - sic transit gloria.. glory fades. |
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ummm i went over to brians house today to "do math" &uhh yeah. i keep doing it guys! i cant stop lol. my mom told me that i should marry emmanuel lol &she was telling me about all these times from like years ago when she would say something like "yeah emmanuel you're gonna have to wait for my daughter then you guys can get married.." or "when you guys are older i give you permission to marry jamie" &he be all like "kool!" or "ok!" or some shit! &like theyd be laughing but he'd be all serious lol. you guysss we're gonna get married. hahaha JJJKKK!!!
but he may be moving to arizona too!! he's gonna possibly apply for some jobs there &he said i should move to like pheonix or tuscan cuz that's where he'll prolly end up living!! I<3HIM lol :D blahblahblah. i sound retarded huh. yep i agree.
uhhhhhh yeah! i need to find stuff to do on the weekends! grrrarrr. i might go to laurals w/brian this weekend cuz they wana get me wasted!?!! .. but idk .. doubt ill go yum sayin hahaha
</3 . </3 . </3
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Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:44 pm. |
| Mood: |  i seriously *love* him hehe. | | Music: | icp - boogie woogie man. |
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SRY JANELLE I WAS ON THE PHONE! &I *HADDDD* TO TALK TO HIM!
but yeah uhh i talked to emmanuel tonight &im about to be seeing him not next weekend but the weekend after that!!! :D :D :D :D im sooo excited! he said i need to get someone to drive me up there so i can visit him! &im gonna! **anyone wanna drive me to redding!?!?!? ill pay for gas! O:) seriously .. ** but yeah
emmanuel's soooo cute! *muah!* hahah
k ima go now bye bye<3
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| Time: | 8:38 pm. |
| Mood: |  crappy. | | Music: | porno for pyros - 100 ways. |
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you guys i looked cute today lol! so seriously though like i felt good about myself FOR ONCE!! geez. hmm my mom was gonna take me to get my nose repierced but she forgot!?!! idk. made me mad but whatevs. ummm i didnt really do anything today.
i went to my grandmas house &got flusterated cuz it was sosoo boring &she kept asking me if i wanted anything to eat or drink. like shed think of anything!! &when id say no then she'd get all offended &be all like "whatever" or "good!" !!ahh i wanted to scream. she takes it personal if you dont take something when she offers it to you!?!! i hate it! lol grr. uhhh
yeah today was boring .. i got mad &bored alot :\ not too good but whateva. wow .. nothing to write about .. bye<3
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Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
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| Time: | 10:46 pm. |
| Mood: |  crazy. | | Music: | watching something on tv ??. |
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i saw passion of the christ today w/janelle &it was sad. i jumped like 4 times guys! lol haha im kool. &my eyes filled w/tears liek 5 times n stuffff. it was sad :( uhhh
i went to an n.a. meeting w/ brian tonight! it was cute. you guys i keep still liking him lol!! we were there for like 45 minutes then we went to his house &i helped his sister get bobby pin thingies out of her hair lol it was funny. there were 71 bobby pins in her head! thats too many.
uhh yep i talked to E-MAN-U-EL to todayy! we're gona do it !??! hahaha hes about to be a fireman in like 2 months! thats so cute. he'll prolly be one of the guys who are in the calendars cuz he's ultra super hott! haha umm but ya.
i like paragraphs .. oh! i had my drivers trainging today &it was funny i kept laughing. tsk tsk tsk to me. hmm thats all i think.
bye byesss <333
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| Time: | 10:20 pm. |
| Mood: |  im not sure anymore. | | Music: | guns n roses - knockin on heavens door. |
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wow! seroiusly fighting allllways! he finds the most smallest retardestest things ever! grr! ::sigh:: damn damn damn he sucks sometimes. anyways uhhh idk he said if i want a relationship "get ur parents off ur back &get some new guy friends" so yay! he better or ill beat ass on him lol
i lost my pill guys!! &i got a Vring today lmao its so cute
i have to paragraph my entires now cuz ppl are dumb dumbs &cant read. lol! jk!!!
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i wanted to bleach my hair today but my mom was lazy :X lol. &i didnt meet my teacher cuz i only had two things done &i was sooo tired from staying up last night :(
IT IS SUCH A SMALLLLL WORLD!!! itssss a small world affffter alll . wow i cant believe how good i can sing
adios muchachos
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k so friday was fun i'd have to admit. chilled w/my nigga &then chilled w/abbisum &janelles. not really abby .. but i DID see her haha then i ate chips n salsa &watched crazy/beautiful w/janelle as she fell asleep lol. thennnn we actually went to bed then idk i cant remember my days too well anymore :| quite annoying yes. hmmm ..
oh! we ate mcdonalds &&&&uhhh "swam/tanned"??? idk! then i went home cuz i thought i was going to dancie dance at 1 but i didnt cuz i didnt feel like it :D um then i went to yard birds w/my moms &came back for like 5 hours to do NOTHING AT ALL so boring .. almost getting caught!! ahh! but yep i didnt cuz im smooooth haha umm then i fiiiiiiinally got a text from janelle saying she can hang out haha but she had already went to katies .. thats kool.
umm but too bad i got her text hella late so i thought she wanted me to come to her house so i got dropped off at her house &had to walk to katies :\ then we were there &we went to mimis a while later &then to the mall. the malls is gay i hate .. ive been there like 908374345 million times in the past week! ya! better believe it .. bitch! haha &then janelle n abby came up ova hurr robbed me of my clothing :( then they left .. thank god!! haha *jk!!*
um yep then today i was gonna go to watch passion of the christ w/my family n crystal but my mom said i didnt have to go cuz eddie n crystal weren't gona go so ya! so i planned on going to janelles then right as i was about to leave my mom reminded me that i had to wash my dads truck!!!
i was so mad so i did that then walked to janelles then tanned/swam/ate/played video games/listened to *gay* music lol jk/&made bracelets .. yeah! then went home then to dance then yep .. now im going
bye . </3 . </3 . </3 .
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Saturday, March 20th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:50 pm. |
| Mood: |  contemplative. | | Music: | janes addiction - no rain. |
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k so me &brian aren't dating but we act like it!?!? &uhh he wants me to get on the pill but idk if i should be doing anything w/him anymore because ok .. lets say we have our thing but he finds some chick &he starts talking w/her &like he doesnt tell me this but then one day out of no where he tells me he has a gf .. ?? you know &then im just left here all like "narrrrrf" &feeling hella retarded n shiiet &ya im afraid thats gonna happen &i dont want it tooo! >:( ruff ruff. ::sigh!!:: idkidkidkidkidkidk we might go mondayyy but ahhhhh!
IDK!!
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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| Time: | 8:29 pm. |
| Mood: |  busy. | | Music: | watching tv. |
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aw so today was ..somewhat eventful ?? i had to get up &get ready to go take the math section to the exit exam thingy. &when we were on our way there .. me &my mom were listening to guns n roses "dont cry" &i was about to cryyy!! omg! my eyes hellllllla filled w/tears! :( it was sad! thenn i got there &it was boring &my back legs &butt fell asleep!! but i got to see a few peoples i havent seen in a while. which was cute. ummm but yeahhh its was eeeasyy! then i got picked up &went home. i dont remember EXACTLY what i did .. but i know i fell asleep sometime during the day today lol &i had an hillllarrrrioouuusss dream! i loved it. &umm then yeah i didnt really do anything. why does it seem like i did something!?!?! well i went &rented movies woowoo! hahah but no i thought i did something ..? oh! i talked to my mom bout stufffeseses! &yeah that felt rather good. Then yeah i was teee veeee. south park had me laughing sooo hard lol. &i watched survivors!! &the hottest guy ever to be on survivors got voted off!!! :( poor ethan! :D hahaha. but seriously hes sooo cute! but yeah .. i was hoping to watch the o.c. but im not sure if its coming on or not. tomorrow im all booked up .. i gots homework i have to dooo! ahh i dont waaannna! but ima get back to my convos iighty.. bye bye
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i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything aobut you
why do i love you
you have everything about me
why do you love me
i hate
you hate
i hate
you love me
i hate everything about you
why do i love you
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Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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I HATE BRIAN!!
i hate him!! he's sucha fag ahhh im gonna beat his ass!
&mALDFKJeL;DFJgALSDKFJVaALSDKFJnA;SDLFKJs ass
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| Time: | 8:06 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | pink floyd - labyrinth. |
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i took the english part o the exit exam today &it was soo easy! i was happy :D thennn i hung out in vacaville &saw SECRET WINDOW because johnny depp is so super hott! so ya! then i came home &got me some subway &ate it hahaha. hmm then i took a nap around 530 or so &brian called me &woke me up at like 7 &asked me what i did today .. i was like "nothing!! i just woke up!" he said "i thought you went to the movies .. ?" i was all "yeah! .. yesterday!" lmaooo! you guysss i thought it was 7 AM!!! lol ahh it was so funny i was hella laughing. then he called me dumb :( ::sniff sniff:: o wells. but yeah so i woke up & i felt hella sick &i got me some water &it was sooooo good. i think i was dehydrated or something. my foot hurts! omg! i walked from 3 oaks to buckingham to mcdonalds then to stupid brendans!! i wanted to cryyyy!! >:O ruff ruff. blah blah blah ima go ill bbl MUAHAHAHAHAAA
*(&^&^$%^$&%^*()&()&*(*&^*(&%^&*&()*(*)_**^%$%$$()*&)_(_
memememememememememememeee
i wanna get tann &then bleach my hair like hella blonde &then put like dark chunks things in it! something different i hate me hair! i need change! yes yes yes
im still thinking bout it though so ya hehe
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| Time: | 8:36 pm. |
| Mood: | AHHH!!!. | | Music: | black eyed peas - anxiety. |
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god you guys! im gonna cry! like i feel so bad about myself!!! i'm such a .. i dont even know! im so mad and sad and confused! and yes! i like exclamation points! lol but now seriously. ::sighhh:: i want a serious relationship! &i miss brian &i sosooo shouldnt because he hella always pissed me off! :X but umm yeah ill bbl ..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
¿¿ </3 ??
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how come i cant see my monkeyyy!!! >:O ruff ruff
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